March 17, 2018
So, I opened my laptop just to check on our bank accounts and bills. Then I suddenly had the urge to type my thoughts. Here I am contemplating if I wanna renew my blog subscription or not and the practical side of me is telling it’s not worth it.
I remember the days when blogging was merely sharing my random thoughts out there to the world, and those days were fun. I was surprised people were actually reading it. It was the time where I just started my blog on tumblr and I was intrigued by all the fuss of creating your own content for people to read. Also, I just moved to Paris and I wanted a way to share my life the way I want it. Not just facebook and twitter.
Now, my blog has changed. Over the past few years I’ve been blogging on and off. Never really consistent. Which is a shame. I actually enjoy it.
I blame myself. I was the one who put too much pressure on myself to make it something that it really wasn’t. I was trying so hard to keep up with the trends and the hype that I forgot my purpose in the first place; to share.
So here I am, no filter, sharing my most random of thoughts. I don’t know what’s gonna happen here on out with my blog. I’ve tried to schedule things and plan videos and posts only to realise it’s just not realistic for me. I’m not saying I can’t do it. It’s just that I’d rather spend my time off lounging with my pup Sophie than to film a video for 2 hours.
I wouldn’t mind however, coming on to my blog and sharing a few things. Random things. Maybe some of you could relate. Maybe not. I’m not gonna try to pretend to be some professional blogger who has her life together and every post is perfect and planned out. I’m not gonna worry myself too much if the content I am putting out is pleasing to my “market”. It’s sad that almost every blog I see are made up of sponsored posts and paid ads. I understand that people have to make a living and I am all for it. I just miss reading real and true to life content. Not just selfies, fashion and travel. Connecting with other bloggers was the best part of all of this for me when I started.
I always tell myself I am the worst blogger in the world because when I go out or do something I always forget to take pictures and it’s because I enjoy the moment. I enjoy the company I am with. This isn’t a business for me. It’s a hobby and an outlet. So I’m gonna stay true to who I am and what this blog was supposed to be, the most random thing in the world… My life.
It’s not gonna be exciting. I can tell you that right away. But at least I don’t have the pressure of trying to be perfect. I’m just gonna be me.